What's the first thing you do if you can't sleep?

You were my best friend’s first.

Your best friend was my first love.

You hurt her.

He hurt me.

I swore I’d never be associated with you.

You changed my mind.

You treated me like a princess, and gave me the world.

I tried to be everything you wanted and to make you happy.

Your best friend took away what I was.

You took away what my best friend was.

I swore I’d never fall for you.

I swore I’d never go back to him.

I thought your best friend came back to me.

I was a bitch, I was a slut, and I did and said things I shouldn’t have.

He was an asshole and told people.

Those people told you.

You called me innocently and expected the truth, said you didn’t believe it and that you defended me.

I told you the truth, the truth was they weren’t lying.

You told me we would still be friends.

I cried.

I called you back.

I explained myself and you said you understood.

I guess maybe you did.

I had to tell my best friend that I dated you even though i screamed at her when she got involved with your best friend.

Now I’m a hypocrite.

I’m not a hypocrite.

I never was.

My best friend forgave me.

I can only pray that you will too.

To the one boy that gave me the world, and never did anything to hurt me, who was honest from the beginning and never spoke badly, who was there by my side and always made me smile…I’m sorry, I’m sorry your best friend taught me it was okay to be the bitch in the relationship. I just didn’t want to get hurt, and now I’m hurt because I hurt you, and I hurt my best friend. I want you to know that you’re right, he was my first love…this may sound ridiculous, but you may very well have been my second, and I’m sorry.

To my best friend, people normally say ‘here’s to the one’s that never left i love you’ … you did leave, and so did I. We both left each other behind multiple times, and in less than 4 months, I will be gone, not for good..but for a very long time. I want you to know that I do not love you for never leaving, I do not love you for making me cry, I do not love you for hurting me, I do not love you for disappearing. I do love you though, stronger and more than I do or ever will anyone else, because you always forgive, and you always accept…and no matter what God always, without a doubt, brings you back into my life moments before my world is about to fall apart, and for that I thank you. Thank you for being my guardian angel, because after tonight. I am convinced that that is what you are.

- A Broken Hearted Seventeen Year Old That Only Wished Others Would Have It Better.

middle-east-beast:

Hermione went alone and got attacked by a troll

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breathing as one with someone, well, what feels like it… it’s not something that comes along too often. <3